why my feed has been barren for like a month
The short answer is I had a baby! She is laying across my elbows while I type this because despite having a perfectly good and cozy bassinet that her parents put in the absolute work to research, to her that thing is equivalent to a jail cell. She is much more content to just have someone hold her (cute) even if that hold is unhinged like what I am doing right now (deranged.) When people ask me what I’ve been up to my answer should honestly be learning how to do everything with my non-dominant hand. Bea is already different than who I imagined she would be but I wouldn’t swap out a single trait to have her “live up” to what that old picture was. Nick and I are still kind of in a liminal space where our “old life” is still so vivid but the “new one” is becoming increasingly more technicolor. I like her!
The long answer is I’ve been on the slow-paced, submitting taxes, answering inquiries, tweaking my website winter end of photography. Transparently: these couple months are always a massive question mark for me. They’re so weird because it’s like: how do I use them? What can I do to recharge my work so it never gets stale? Where do I go for creativity - and can I even go anywhere in these shifting temps with a ravenous daughter! It can be easy to make myself post random photos from the prior year’s weddings just for proof that something is still happening over here. One side of my brain is like: there needs to be a reason for putting this up! And the other side of my brain is like: stop overanalyzing and just put work out into the world! Luckily Instagram isn’t the end-all-be-all. This past week alone I was inspired by our first walk with Bea in the stroller and my grandma’s extremely pure dresser decorations.
Photography is wild because of the personal nature of it - I would love to be able to detach more and treat it as purely a job but where is the heart in that! So while I’m on pause from telling couples’ stories, I’m making this season as lighthearted as I can and investing in stuff I actually think is going to make your final galleries look as distinctive as can be. Your weddings are one-of-a-kind! For starters I bought two new film stocks I’ve never tried before that will be making their first appearance at this year’s days: CineStill 800 and Kodak UltraMax 400. Every photographer’s best friend is Kodak Portra 400 and I love it so much but it’s time for some new rolls to have their days in the sun. I’ve also been on Pinterest every second of my life probably putting their servers to the test with how much I’ve been saving to these wedding boards. Just extremely excited to dust off the equipment as soon as possible and get you guys captured with a refreshed viewpoint. I’ll see you there!
